Saturday, January 07, 2006
A great night with my cello, Ellwood
After two hours, I was exhausted and had to force myself to stop.
Right now I'm listening to Apocalyptica's self-titled album, which came in the mail today from Amazon. I've been immersed all day in cello music, I've listened to Apocalyptica' Reflections several times - I really like "Faraway", "Cortege" and "Epilogue". I also listened to a couple Rasputina albums. They're a bit different, but I like them. I looked for Bond's Classified album at Fred Meyer today (I'd seen one copy a couple weeks ago) but it was gone - it makes me feel good there are other enthusiasts.
For a while, all this talent began to make me feel pretty inadequate. I only recently realized that it was exactly that defeatist attitude that kept me from picking up the cello all these years. Now I know I don't have to be great - obviously, I'll never be great, I'd be happy to be just adequate.
The cello chose me a long time ago, and finally, I have to deal with it. I know that playing every day,without fail for as long as I can, will pay off. If I keep it up, I'll be playing sweet music in no time.
Still, in the forums the kids talk about 3rd and 5th position, and the thumb position and vibrato; I'm a little intimidated because I still can't get my little finger to regularly stretch far enough in 1st position. But then I remember that every one of them had to learn the same thing I'm having to learn, and at some point got past it. I will eventually get past those same challenges, and appreciate not only the result but the satisfaction of achieving something.